Friday, March 02, 2007 ; 11:24 PM
i'm so tired i'm partially braindead right now. but i want to do some work. i need to do some work. so i thought i'd do some online research. but once i turned on the computer, i'll 100% confirm guaranteed to get distracted. today for instance, i got distracted by updating my ipod. other days with blog, other other days with friendster. its like once i'm online, i'll always manage to find something to distract myself from what i've set out to do in the first place. which is bad. and i got to stop doing this. its makes me feel very guilty for not doing anything constructive.
today was the release of the a'level results. i feel so glad for them. tj did better than last year and 80% distinctions for literature. i bet a lot of effort went into studying for the exams. and for that, i admire them for their hardwork and intelligence. i can't help feeling a sense of despair. the time is drawing near for my own big exam. but i'm nowhere near the finishing point. in the academic sense. having experienced a miracle for my o'level exams doesn't mean it will happen again this time. i was there in the hall and i felt so motivated to press on and to enjoy the fruits of my labour just like them at the end of the day. but time is running short. and i'm totally stretched, both physically and mentally. dancing 7 times in 4 days a week and piling up loads and loads of schoolwork which i can't clear after i come home from dance when i just feel like collapsing on the bed to sleep. i don't get good weekends either. i'm probably too involved in church commitments. i find that the time i really get the strength to study will be on sunday nights.
i know year 2 isn't going to be easy. but i'm not guarded against it and all the stress that comes with it. i'm really trying my best. but everything that's going on and taking up my time is going to wear me out very soon.
